I feel like I have come to a point in my life where I don't really fit in. Kind of like when you are a Junior in high school. When you are a sophmore you are just glad to be in high school and about to earn some freedom by getting a drivers liscence. When you are a Senior you can see the light at the end of the tunnel. You are just a moment away from moving on to bigger and better things in life. When you are a Junior your excitement for high school is gone and you feel like it the end is nowhere in sight. I feel like a Junior again! I am no longer the young mom with little kids running around. Don't get me wrong, I love the freedom I have earned with my kids growing older and more independent! I have loved getting a full nights sleep for a while now! But I love babies so much and can't see myself without them. It is a little hard to think that I will never carry and give birth to a baby again. It is been really hard for me to face that reality. My kids are getting to the age where they truely believe they know it all and are smarter that me. I don't blame them, it feels like just yesterday I was thinking the same thing about my own parents. They don't really need me, they just want me to give in to their every demand.
I am having a hard time with what to wear lately too. Even though I still feel like I am 17, I can no longer pull off dressing like one. But man, the old lady clothes aren't too appealing either! Where do I stand? I don't know! All I know is that the days are flying by!
Oliver in Brazil: April 2024
1 week ago
7 comments:
I hear ya sista'!! I believe it's called "Mid-Life" often followed by the word "crisis", in my case!! Jasen keeps asking when I'm gonna start shopping in the grown-up section.. and I shrilly scream.. NEVER!!!!!
Can I copy and paste your post to my own blog? I feel the same way. I feel old and so out of it! I feel like I am falling off of a sky-scraper and there is nothing I can do about it. We need to get together and party, but I can't even stay up past 10 anymore. Weren't we just in HighSchool? Life is one fast ride. It kinda reminds me of a vacation.
Your forgetting that my kidos are keeping you young. You still get to change diapers, wipe bums, haul carseats, get told "no", cut up food, clean dirty hands and faces, etc. The list goes on and on. You don't have to thank me now, but maybe later. And as for the clothes situation I have yet to see you in a tube top and daisy dukes so I think your ok. I let you know if you get out of hand. We all love you too much!
You make me laugh. I don't think you'll ever have to worry about not fitting in, especially with the wardrobe. You'll always be a sexy mama!
I hear ya! I think it's cause we had our kids so young all of sudden we have teenagers and we still feel like we just left that stage! You could always have another baby to make you feel young again! Ha ha!
I bought a dress last month, and watched as the following two weeks 2 different 12 year old girls showed up at church wearing the same dress that I had bought. I guess it was lucky for me that it was too small and I couldn't wear it anyway. ;0)
Amen.... stay strong and don't give in... although those sweat pants look comfy and tempting to get in 14 different colors.....
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