IN A WEIRD SPOT

I feel like I have come to a point in my life where I don't really fit in. Kind of like when you are a Junior in high school. When you are a sophmore you are just glad to be in high school and about to earn some freedom by getting a drivers liscence. When you are a Senior you can see the light at the end of the tunnel. You are just a moment away from moving on to bigger and better things in life. When you are a Junior your excitement for high school is gone and you feel like it the end is nowhere in sight. I feel like a Junior again! I am no longer the young mom with little kids running around. Don't get me wrong, I love the freedom I have earned with my kids growing older and more independent! I have loved getting a full nights sleep for a while now! But I love babies so much and can't see myself without them. It is a little hard to think that I will never carry and give birth to a baby again. It is been really hard for me to face that reality. My kids are getting to the age where they truely believe they know it all and are smarter that me. I don't blame them, it feels like just yesterday I was thinking the same thing about my own parents. They don't really need me, they just want me to give in to their every demand.
I am having a hard time with what to wear lately too. Even though I still feel like I am 17, I can no longer pull off dressing like one. But man, the old lady clothes aren't too appealing either! Where do I stand? I don't know! All I know is that the days are flying by!